Who am I?

First off, I don't know why I am making one of these. Maybe it's because reading other people's blogs is fun. Or maybe it's because I feel that I really need somewhere to vent and let go of life's problems. 

Recently, I've been thinking about my future and I've come to the conclusion that I am really don't know what I'm going to do. All my life, I've taken orders from my parents. "Go to this place" or "do this". Because of that I've developed this mentality that I can go where ever life leads me. I don't have to do anything. Everything I need will eventually come to me. I couldn't be any more wrong. Because of this thinking, I've been left in the dust while everyone around me speeds off to success. This is my senior year. What am I going to do? I just have one year to catch up to everyone.

Now I have to work doubley (not sure if that's a word) hard to catch up. I need to dream big. I need to take the initiative. I need to grow up. But I also need to ask God if what I'm doing is the right thing to do. I know many people who have experienced midlife crisis' and I am determined that I am not going to be one of those people. My favorite bible teacher showed our class this diagram: 

BELIEFS-----------> OPTIONS--------------> CHOICE

People who realize that they do not like their career, for example, always go back to their options. When their choice turns out to be something that they don't like, they go back and pick another option. But they should be going back to their beliefs. Options that are not God-centered are likely to feel like hell. I don't want to feel hell.

I feel better now. :)