90%

I've never felt so much like scum. I am the dregs of trash that contain just the stinkiest, smelliest, most rotten piece of trash you have ever seen. Not a pretty picture huh? Every time I think about my relationship with God, I  compare myself to this. I cannot count just how many times I have broken my promises with Him. Quick fact about myself: I hate breaking promises with anybody. But when it comes to God, I have no problem for some reason. I completely hate when I do this, but I keep doing it like a dog that returns to its own vomit.

This retreat was awesome. I became closer to many of my friends but more importantly, closer to God. During the retreat, I felt like I was not giving God my 100%. I had this little feeling that there was this tiny black spot in my heart that read "RESTRICTED". This was the spot where all my broken promises with God were held. This retreat, I had a lot of time to just to think about my problem and ask God for forgiveness. I'm not sure if that spot is completely gone, but it's definitely gotten a lot smaller. I feel like I can move on and give Him all of my praise from now on instead of moping in the mud.