Why I don't

Yesterday, one of my teachers asked me if I had had girlfriend, which seems to be a favorite topic among women. I casually said no, and she proceeded to ask me why. I thought about it, but just smiled back.

I actually thought about her question for some time after that and wondered why. Was it a lack of courage? Was it a fear of women? Then it came to me. In a un-narcissistic way I asked myself: Would I want to date myself? Honestly, I wouldn't. If people knew me the way I knew myself, I don't think I'd have any friends. If I had a girlfriend, how would I be able to treat her well? I don't think I could. I've heard there were maybe one or two girls out there who liked me, and I apologize. As of now, I'm not the guy you're looking for, not until I grow up a bit.

Curse My Simple Mindedness

Think Daniel. Why would they do what they did? Why would they say what they said? Think about it will you?

This Week

There's always that ONE WEEK in school when every teacher decides to give you some sort of important assignment. You always think to yourself, "How the HELL am I going to survive this week?!" But somehow, in the end, you always do. Of course, you never want to experience it EVER AGAIN, but it's always self-fulfilling to know that you can. For me, it's the opposite this week. On almost every day, Sunday through Sunday, I will/had something to do. On Monday, what I thought was going to be a simple movie with my friends turned out to be a long, fun day filled with shopping, karaoke, and soon-tofu. That was just the first day. There are so many more things I am looking forward to this week. I can't wait to see how this week unfolds.

Then vs. Now

It's natural to change as life progresses. It happens all the time. When I came into high school, I was a skinny (still kinda skinny now) Asian kid who was just looking for fun. I had absolutely no sense of worry, so because of this attitude, I was extremely giving. People at school thought I was the nice, quiet, smart Asian kid who was always smiling. Now that I look at who I am today, I realize that I've changed dramatically, more than I imagined. The change in my mentality was what I found most changed. I'm not happy most of the time, the things I say aren't the most friendly, I always look tired, and I seem to lose my "cool" quickly.

I donno. I feel like I've changed in the wrong direction. Maybe I tried growing too fast and I'm just tired. I donno. Whatever it is, I need to figure it out. Maybe I just need to rewind a little.

Found God in the Park

I just thought this story was a little cute

Abe was fiercely independent, even at age 85, but after a mild stroke his son insisted he move in with him. Abe missed going to the park near his old apartment, and one Saturday he set out to find it.

When he became disoriented, he asked a young boy named Timmy where the park was. Timmy said he’d like to take him there, but he didn’t have time because he was looking for God. He said he needed to talk to Him about why his parents were getting a divorce.

“Maybe God’s in the park,” the old man said. “I’d like to talk to Him, too, about why He’s made me useless.” And so they set off together to find God.

At the park, Timmy began to cry about the divorce, and Abe lovingly held his face in both hands and looked him straight in the eyes. “Timmy, I don’t know why bad things happen, but I know it wasn’t because of you. I know you’re a good boy and your parents love you and you’ll be okay.”

Timmy gave Abe a big hug and said, “I’m so glad I met you. Thanks. I think I can go now.”

From across the street, Timmy’s mother saw them hug and approached her son in a worried voice. “Who was that old man?”

“I think he’s God,” Timmy said.

“Did he say that?” she demanded.

“No, but when he touched me and told me I’m going to be okay, I felt really better. Only God can do that.”

When Abe got home, his son asked in a scolding voice, “Where were you?”

“I was in the park with God.”

“Really? What makes you think you were with God?”

“Because He sent me a boy who needed me, and when the boy hugged me, I felt God telling me I wasn’t useless anymore.”